Cinematic Damage
~ Before Sunrise ( 1995)
Starting with what heart breaks mean, I can say that it is something very subjective and individual to everyone. It will be very improper to say that someone did not face a heart break at some point in their life. What matters is how you out there start coping with the fact that something is wrong. Instantly that very something is so heavy that it becomes confusing and turns into a baggage. It’s always easy to pen the feeling down like I am doing right now but how many of us can actually try expressing what they feel? That action would have saved a lot of situations which ruined ‘their’ moments. The concept is another movie seen socially. Indeed this one’s a bit different than what you watch on screen because this is you and your story.
We did feel that ache when ‘it’ hurts you right? Doesn’t mean what I have to keep sharing will only confine to relationships. People need to realise that this certain void is vast to ever get covered and recognised. Can we try? Definitely. Let’s start with what this feels like. The persuit of happiness as they say is technical. Technical in the sense that it makes you do what they think you have to rather than let you actually go with the flow. Everything takes time, even if it’s from a long time now that you are in an anxious dilemma. Healing is a slow process and heart breaks are the only best part about it. Bragging about the pain can make you heroic but forgetting the one scratch you didn’t want is certainly impossible. It is difficult to make people understand that you cannot forget what hurts you, what breaks your heart into a number of small theories and therapies for the future to experiment on. They don’t see the unseen that this going on right now is something they might see in the coming days because that’s when everything will start getting the “why’s” to the climax.
You know that when you least expect it, nature has it’s cunning way of finding your weakest spots. But to make yourself feel nothing, so as to feel nothing is a waste of time. Then there comes the moment when you’re found weeping in your room or with a smile on your face dieing inside that the choices that you make are not always about us. That is the exact part where you get the answer to your misery. Right now, there is sorrow and pain. Don’t kill it and with the joy you have felt. There’s this quote from a movie where it said, “ I know I am wise or maybe I am. I told you I know nothing. I know books and I know how to string words together. But it doesn’t mean that I know how to speak about the things that matter the most to me” and that’s it. This is the one weak point where everyone of us relate without any other query.
Give a chance. Doesn’t matter how much and what you had to go through. This might seem cruel but isn’t that’s what this is? You get hurt, you feel the pain , the agony , the irony . But the ones who made you feel the way you feel, aren’t close enough to the suffering you faced with a smile onn. And that’s where you won. It’s not important for what and for why you had to go through the unwanted damages. What is important is to know that the moment when they left you, the time when your parents were against you, the day when your best friend abandoned you or the day when you realised that you had always been a little bit extra for people who don’t deserve it. Everything had its own kind of movie and a series of heart breaks to sink in. That is when you have to realise subconsciously that end of the day heart breaks do have their own cinemas. It’s you who has to keep working on making the movie. Just not a block buster.
This is now that you feel that no one other than you have to know what you feel and how it feels to be normal when you just aren’t close enough to it. This movie has your ending and you own it.
© Trayee
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